Remember the Serendipity Guy? ( #serendipityguy for backstory)After he got back from HK and AUS, I dared myself again to ask him for a coffee talk. Yesterday, I snapchatted him a doodle that said –
"Hi Bro, one last attempt. Coffee, 2 PM, Sunday - for one hour? Circle your answer (Y/N)"
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He replied 4 AM on Sunday.
"So highschool. I circled Y. Would love to meet you."
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I slumped to the floor. There’s no looking back now. We then agreed to meet up today at 4.30 on Cafe Mangia.
Then I went. I was late cause sudden traffic. I arrived at 4.45. I was just 30 feet away from the cafe, but I stopped. I stood under the tree and boy.. there was a hard battle inside of me.
Should I show myself? Is it rude if I cancel? I’ll spend the rest of my life as an asshole if I do it tho. I hyperventilate and the panic attack.. attacked.
I know it means nothing to you, but I never meet anyone new (beside college/job-circle).
I bailed several tinder dates because I afraid to show up. I refuse 11 talk shows and speaker invitation because I don’t want to appear in public cause I am not ready (part of it). I don’t want to be seen. The other part is because I’m not comfortable with my own skin, the other part is because I feel so little, and social anxiety. And everything.
There, I said it.
It was hard for me to show my being.
Then I knew him. He’s actually the first human I want to meet, for real. He’s so intriguing, in a way I can’t explain, he caught my curiosity too much I endure the fear of showing up just to see him in real life.
And it was hard.
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Are you scared? Or are you not ready? There is a difference.
- Author Unknown.
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I took a deep breath, walked and pray to God, tell myself that this is nothing to lose, and I already made this far to just go back.
And…
There he was. Wearing a weird shade of blue shirt. Glowing. Our eyes met.
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Oh crap.
I finally understand why some people go crazy over him.
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