Remember that time when you’re 14, you saw your friend lying motionless in casket? Just month before you both tried to be rebellious and dyed your hair red. And that was the last time you tried to colour your hair ever.
Remember when you’re 16, that accident when you’re on top of teenage angst? You went coma for days and skipped school for months. You thought that was the end, and you worried you left this world without able to apologise to your parent. But you did survive. And you did apologise.
Remember when you were 20 and you saw a person you cherish, left this world in peace? You saw the person you love next to her mourning and it broke your heart the most. You thought you could never recover. But you managed it. We did it.
Remember years back and forth seeing your heroes not in a good time in their life? You thought you would be sad forever. It crashed you cause this was the reality. But look at you, laugh at little thing. Even some people thanking you for your laugh. You happy with a simple hello from your heroes. You recover. You grew.
Remember all those fears hit you years back? You thought you didn’t survive, but you did. You’re typing this. You’re doodling this. You took a picture. You show it to people.
Then why “standing up for what you want as an adult” looked like the biggest fear? You so worry you go downhill and couldn’t survive. In such material worlds, you worry you didn’t make it. You worry too much it stopped you to do things that actually matters to your own self. World as constant toleration from one to another. It is true we have to be prepared, had plans, have backup plans. Acknowledge the bills and the needs to survive. Mitigate your dreams but be alive.
But, remember all those unpleasant things you’ve managed to cope? You’re here right now, aren’t you?
Just a talk from myself to myself.
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“Remember the time you thought you never could survive? You did, and you can do it again.”
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